Things have been crazy but i’m back and lost 23lbs
hey guys! I’m still alive, there is too much for me to catch you guys up on. It’s been sort of a dark time for me. Anything and everything has happened but in all that I managed to lose weight! I feel so much better, I can do a 9 hour shift at work and I don’t hurt as bad as I use to. The other night I was only suppose to work 8 hours and I worked 9 because I felt great! Get ready for this I’ve lost 23lbs!!!!! Let me say it again 23lbs!!!!! I never in my life thought I would lose that much. Granted I went from 188 to 176 over the summer but then I just stayed the same weight for months. Of course I gained a lot back but Jan. I got myself down to 165!
It is still very hard but when I look back I didn’t change that much but I did lol I know I’m not making sense. I’ve finally understood portion size. I do not count calories (I do a rough amount in my head though) I learned that, that was way too much stress. I do weigh myself every morning but I don’t get mad if it says I gained a pound because I know now there are so many factors to weight gain and most of the time, now, it is water weight or I ate heavy the night before. I eat before I go to work, I eat a snack at work and when I come home I eat a small dinner. I’m sort of following the diet french women do (not to mention my ancestors were french so I was like what the heck) I eat a large amount at lunch and eat small the rest of the day. I didn’t take everything out I love. If one night I worked my butt off at work I get a candy bar (just one this time compared to three like I use to). I drink a pop every once in a while and most of the time it makes me sick so I don’t drink another one for a month or I take three days to drink one (still love the taste of the Dew lol).
No more taco bell for me! The reason is one I didn’t have the money to spend on fast food and two a girl I worked with got Hep A from a fast food place. She was only 18 and it got so bad she had to get a liver transplant. I got scared and I guess it ran through my body and I don’t crave it anymore and I’m so happy and my body thanks me.
I’m still having trouble with accepting my weight lose. I know 23 is a lot and granted no one has given me a compliment. I had to tell people I lost the weight and they didn’t say much. They probably think I’m going to gain it back. Yesterday the size 16 pants I had were too dirty for work. I found another pair that was a 14 and I was like “No way I can wear these yet” and guess what! They went on and I could still breathe and I was able to work comfortably.
I know that I’m still overweight for my size and I can’t prance around in the clothes that I was use to but I’m so much closer. I grab things out of my closet and feel how they are getting looser and I’m happy about that. On here I say that my long term goal is 115 and I know I can do it but I’ll be happy with 130 so I’m now 35lbs away from my goal rather than 58lbs from my goal. OMG I just realized that YEAH!!!!
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